decided

 i thought that would be my last farewell trip. 

i did swear to myself i won't be swayed again by any false ideation of mine.

a delusion.

but why must that embarrassing moment happened?

i believe there must be a strong reason for every turns in our life.

when that thing happened, i kept questioning my decision.

why? why? why?

i have decided.

i must stop imagining things i knew will never come true.

please be decisive and be selfish for once.

i'll be alright.